I thought nothing could ever bring me down, till it did.
In my darkest hour I sat there wondering where it all went wrong.
Fighting the dark thoughts that occupied my mind.
I had all these dreams, ambitions, but it was all coming apart.
At every turn, disappointment lay in wait.
Maybe I was just not meant to succeed at anything.
For far too long I swam in the murky waters of self-pity.
In my mind I was not worthy of anyone's love or care.
Callously, I pushed away anyone who ever mattered to me.
Built walls that no one could ever break down.
My heart was well and truly closed for business.
My story had reached a dead end and I had nothing to show for it.
Just a catalogue of what ifs.
Before me lay a trail of regrets and mistakes.
I refuse to stay down; I won’t accept defeat.
There is so much more I have to offer, so much life to live.
Down, but never out, beaten, but never defeated.
Watch this space, my best is yet to come.