Out of the ashes I rise, from the darkness I have found the light.
I found myself in a bottomless pit, no hope in sight.
My mind busy with empty thoughts, I found solace from staring at a blank wall.
Overcome with emotions tears would roll down my cheeks.
So haunted by sleep I didn’t want to close my eyes.
I couldn’t bear to find out the nightmares that lay in wait for me on the other side.
I made an acquaintance with the dark corners at the back of mind.
I went for days without moving or eating.
Laying there like a rock, immovable, so content to do nothing.
I couldn’t bear to look myself in the mirror, afraid to see the shame in my reflection.
I punished myself for doing nothing by doing nothing.
My heart shattered by constant disappointed, I used to think I was strong.
For once I was broken, hopeless and all out of moves.
I found peace in being idle, if I never try I can never fail, right?
Truth is I played myself.
The shame I felt for just wasting away, giving up all hope.
The dark thoughts that occupied my mind almost won.
I have seen rock bottom, trust me it isn't a place to be.
If you get carried away it will make you a citizen.
No matter how strong you think you are, life will always find a way to humble you.
Do not let your pride be your undoing.
Do not suffer in silence.
You are no island, remember that.